Even Better Than Eden: Ch. 2, Tree, Personal Journal
Life is a test. Which is to say, life is full of choices.
Some of them I make without thinking. In others, I need to learn how to recognize the choice.
I may not have control over my circumstances or what comes at me, but I always have a choice in how I respond to it.
Or I can choose the way of life—God’s way—which often is more challenging but is consistent with His Word.
At the root of this choice is faith. Will I trust what God says more than my own reasoning?
This, I believe, is the core of every test. The circumstances may change. The people may be different.
But this is where I get the chance to grow. We do not grow unless we are tested.
It is only through our tests that we can see clearly where we are weak or where our faith needs work or how our understanding is off.
But this is also where we need to remember the nature of our God. He is not simply rubbing his hands in glee hoping we will fail the test.
Like Adam and Eve, we mistake the enemy for God…and doubt.
Rather, our God, as a loving Father who is training his children, allows us to experience tests so that we might know how much we need Him and turn to Him for the help we need to make that right choice. His intent: to mature us from glory to glory (2 Cor. 3:18), to enjoy a better quality of life—satisfied and secure.
For the past seven years, Anah has been my thorn in the flesh, my experience of wilderness.
But with the last two chapters, I am learning to see that she can also be the very place of my testing—and the doorway into the promise of true life.
How will I choose? Will I choose to trust that her presence in my life is designed by God for my good? Will I choose to daily enter into her care, moment by moment, even if it costs me, believing that He will not only see me through to the other side but that it is the exact path I need to travel to experience life?
Like everyone else, I want to escape the wilderness. And I want to do it my own way. I tend to go with what makes sense—but experience has shown me that there is a cost. Usually it is at the expense of my relationships—with God, with my husband and children, with Anah herself, with others. It affects my testimony—and not for the better.
Though hard, God’s ways always lead to life. Will you and I trust Him and choose rightly?