Another month has flown by. What has happened this month? Several big things, like
finalizing our adoption,
going on our first family vacation over spring break,
and celebrating Anah's 8th birthday
come to mind. It has been quite a busy month for all of us!
There are also many things we thank God for over the past 30 days, namely:
- Anah is doing much better with the toilet! I won't go into details, but we are definitely seeing progress in this area.
- Friends who have come alongside us, offering speech and occupational therapy assessments and help, and one dear mom from our church who simply comes to play with Anah for a couple of hours a week. We are infinitely grateful for the gifts of time and love.
- An opportunity for Anah to meet some of her cousins and uncles/aunties on her daddy's side of the family.
- Meeting our case worker from the Regional Center that will help us find resources and help.
For me, I have been learning that progress is not going to be fast. This is a challenge for me as I am used to moving, thinking and working quickly (not that that's something to brag about). Life with Anah has forced me to move a little slower, or at least it forces me to learn patience (not what I want!).
I am also learning that if I am going to be able to stick it out for the long run, rest is no longer an option. In the beginning, I thought that like my other children, I will get through this and life will go back to normal. Not so this time. With the amount of care that Anah requires, it doesn't look like it's going to let up any time soon. So in order for me to be of any use to my family, I need to make time to rest---every night, every week in a Sabbath, and annually in an extended retreat. They are not optional, but required.
Another thing I am learning: I need to lower my standards, for myself, for my kids, for life in general. There are not enough hours in the day to do everything I'd like to do. God has had to show me that what is most important are not my to-do lists but the people in my life. But people take time, and it is easy to get wrapped up in things to do, chasing goals that may not be what God intends for me, and then forgetting about the people that God has called me to love and care for. There is only one way for me to have time for the people in my life, and that is to let go of other things that I may want. And that's hard.
I am still waiting for the day when Anah will feel like a part of our family. She is a part of our routines now, but that's not quite the same. As our friend, Pastor Jon Hori writes in his blog post, "Learning to be family, post-adoption, is glorious. God is definitely at work. But, it’s also a lot of hard work." He says it so much better than I do, so hop on over to his blog to read what he has to say. It pretty much sums it up for us too.
Thanks again for walking with us for another month. We appreciate your prayers and love for our family as we seek to live out the gospel in our home each day through this adoption journey.