[box] Every Saturday morning, I will be sharing a little snippet from my own personal walk with God...straight from the heart. God has work to do in me too, and sometimes it's not pretty. But my prayer is that as I am honest, He is more able to do that work in me...and at the same time, encourage you as well.[/box] "Behold, what I have seen to be good and fitting is to eat and drink find enjoyment in all the toil with which one toils under the sun the few days of his life that God has given him, for this is his lot. Everyone also to whom God has given wealth and possessions and power to enjoy them, and to accept his lot and rejoice in his toil--this is the gift of God."--Eccl. 5:18, 19
This morning, I baked. I found this recipe for Lemon Muffins and this one for Spiced Carrot Bread. As I measured, mixed, and grated lemon peel on my new lemon zester, I was content. Even though I was baking these as "work," I was deeply aware of the joy of creating.
It was a long week. My husband was out of town. My older son came down with a fever. I felt trapped in the house with no backup. Though we were on spring break, I felt like there were a ton of things I needed to do and none of it was really getting done. I could feel myself getting edgier and more tense as the week went on.
So this morning, I felt like this act of creating was a gift from God. Even though in the midst of it, I had to stop and feed the kids breakfast and do a bunch of little chores here and there, when I popped my loaves of carrot bread into the oven to bake, there was an overwhelming feeling of accomplishment. I knew I had done something good. When the house started filling with the aroma of baking cake, I knew I was blessed.
It is not because I live in a mansion. It is not because we earn a seven figure income. It is not because I am wildly successful. I realized that God's blessings come when I learn to see the work He gives me to do as a blessing, when I learn to "enjoy the toil" of the day. When I accept my life from His hand and rejoice in the work He has for me to do, this is one of His greatest gifts.
I must say that some of those moments are more enjoyable than others. But I am also realizing that it is not what is happening externally but the posture of my heart internally that determines how much I enjoy my life. When I am at peace with where God has me at this moment in time, this will help me to look at life far differently than when I am fighting and resisting His plan for me.
There are times when I wish I did live in a mansion, or have the luxury of a seven figure income or was wildly successful. But I don't have to have those things to enjoy the life God gives me. That is entirely in my power now.