[box] Every Saturday morning, I will be sharing a little snippet from my own personal walk with God...straight from the heart. God has work to do in me too, and sometimes it's not pretty. But my prayer is that as I am honest, He is more able to do that work in me...and at the same time, encourage you as well.[/box] "For this light and momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen."--2 Cor. 4:17-18a
[This post was actually written Friday morning and scheduled in advance. By the time you read this, I am outta here!]
This week has been a craaaazy one. Getting ready to move and preparing for a retreat took up most of my week. Plus some unexpected doctor's appointments on top of that. And then, last but not least, I was getting ready to send the February Mom University newsletter out so that you can actually enjoy the goodies before Valentine's Day! (If you haven't signed up, I encourage you to do so. Here's a post that tells you what is in it this month.)
Anyways, as things heat up around here, I tend to also heat up as well. Even though I am looking forward to the weekend, the mound of unfinished packing looming ahead is threatening to overtake me. I really am not looking forward to more late nights after staying up late and working hard this weekend (you know how retreats are!).
This morning, however, the Lord had two things He was bringing to the forefront of my mind. The first is this:
Live by faith, not sight.
I did not grow up in a Christian home, so from very early on, I relied on my own wits and abilities. That worked for my dad, and that was what he passed on to me. Not that I blame him or anything. How else could he have taught me differently? When I became a Christian, however, I still carried this into my mode of operations.
For me, today, living by faith would require that I believe that He will somehow help us to get all that packing done, even though I haven't even touched it. It is believing that not only that, He will give me the strength to do it, while not biting my kids' and husband's head off in the process. (We don't want any maimed family members to add to the chaos!) And the hardest for me to believe, is that not only that, He can help me to actually enjoy and bless my family while working hard.
The fleshly me will see the work to do and bulldoze over everyone in the way. But I think God is challenging me to believe that with Him, there is another way, a better way. It doesn't mean He's going to wave his wand and poof! it's done. It does mean that He will be near me and help me as my helper, through the Holy Spirit that He has given me. I am never alone. Will I remember that?
The second thing, somewhat related to the first, is this:
Live in the present.
As tempting as it is to allow myself to mentally make my list of that needs to be done when I get home, God is also challenging me to embrace and live today. He wants me to be fully here, not in the future. This morning, I read in my devotional, "How ridiculous to grasp for future gifts when today's is set before you." I think this means not only gifts but worries as well (Matthew 6:34).
Now, I just wrote a series on goal setting, so it doesn't mean just live without any direction. But I also think that even as I look ahead, I need to be living here, not just constantly getting ready for the next project, the next task, the next assignment. Unfortunately, I am usually a few steps ahead of where I am now, and often times, I miss the things that God wants me to do now. They usually come in little ways, sometimes in the form of interruptions.
Taken together, I think God is trying to ask me today to look to Him even as I tend to the cares of today. He is not asking me to carry the weight of my worries myself. He is asking me to look to Him to take care of today's work---and to trust that everything will work out in the end. My prayer is that as I look to Him today, I will not miss the good things that He wants to show me---the little hugs and kisses, the opportunities to bless my family, to say a kind word to a sister in Christ, to encourage someone who may need it more than I do.
Heavenly Father, I present myself before you today. There is so much to do. You know that. But above all, I want to keep my eyes on you today, Lord. May Your Holy Spirit strengthen my arms. Increase my awareness of You in and through my life and around me today. I want to walk by faith, not sight. Help me to see You in all that You have given me to do this day, this weekend, this upcoming week. Teach me how to rejoice in the gifts of today and to be every mindful to thank You for them. May all I do be pleasing in your sight. I love You. In Jesus' name, Amen.