When God Writes a Different Story
“For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.”—Ephesians 2:10 (ESV)
I turned 50 this year. That’s half a century. Along the way, God has surprised me many times.
I graduated from high school thinking I would become a doctor. I graduated college planning to be a full-time missionary.
I married a man from a different ethnic background almost 25 years ago.
I had two more children, even after I had one girl and one boy. One of them arrived the year I turned 40. The other one was adopted.
I stepped down from a meaningful seven-year ministry as a campus minister so I could homeschool my children.
I went through (and still am going through) the struggles of understanding how to love a non-verbal former orphan who has Down Syndrome.
I discovered that despite my degree in biological science, I love to teach. I enjoy writing and speaking, two things I swore I would never do.
While these things may not be what I thought my life would look like, it is no surprise to God. He planned and prepared my life and wrote that plan out as He numbered my days (Ps. 139:16).
My satisfaction with the story He is writing for me will depend on whether I am satisfied with God Himself or insisting on writing my own.
My natural bent is to rule my own life. I want to be in control of my own destiny. And I can fool myself into thinking that I know best. After all, it is my life, right?
But my sinful nature only sees so much. My heart is deceitful and desperately wicked (Jer. 17:9). Despite what popular culture tells us, following it will always lead me astray.
I have been fighting God for the last six years, since the adoption of our daughter, Anah. This chapter of my life has not been a happy one. I have been trying so hard to erase it, rip out the pages, and rewrite what God has ordained.
How foolish I have been. How much energy I have wasted. I must confess that I’m still tempted to go my own way, but I am catching myself earlier and reorienting my heart back to His sooner.
This reorienting, this turning to face Him then shines light and purpose, even we struggle with the direction our story is going. Trusting that His heart is good even when we struggle with life is a hard step of faith.
But it is a step in the right direction. When we do so, He can then start putting the pieces together for us.
Action: In what way(s) has God written a different story for you? Take some time to praise Him—even if it might be hard to do so—and trust in His goodness.
Heavenly Father, the Author of all great stories, I invite you to write mine in the way you choose.